It’s 1 am and still awake why you ask.
Well my fingers feel someone is stretching them out of place they feel like i weight on them. They ache and that’s just the start.
My elbows ache like i been doing the job of a builder, but I work from bed most days these days. Which I’m greatful I can.
I’m lying here crying because since 9 pm, I have taken my medication but I’m still pain my knee has shooting pains and hips aches.
I’m getting little sleep I’m so exhausted the end is in site for my knee operation. In all honesty I don’t know much I have left in me.
The demons inside my head telling me that I’m not worthy to Albert’s mummy. Telling me that I might as well give up now. I feel like there is only one answer to the pain. How much am I expected to take?
The sleepless nights the tossing and turning trying to get comfortable. The late night thoughts to myself running in overdrive when there’s no one to speak to.
I’m the pain to go I want to be normal.
What I wouldn’t do for day with out pain as they come closer together and effect more of my body.
I wonder how much I can endure or will have to.